Jade

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Oh yea! It would be otherwise known as bonding. With your teenage son.

I spent the early hours of the evening riding around on the back of a quad with my son at the helm. His big joy through it all? Steppin' on the throttle hard and nearly throwing me off the back of the bike. I would screech, grab him around his waist and hold on tight. He would giggle like a little girl. He got a kick out of the power/control that he had over his mother for those brief moments. I let him have it too as he was enjoying it so.

He is leaving for Arizona pretty quickly for 3 weeks. I am going to miss him something fierce. I think he is going to miss me too, even if it is just a tad.

You know how boys are with their mommas. *grin*

It was a great night. The kind that I wish would never have to end but one I am sure we will end up repeating at least a dozen more times this year alone.

Sitting around the fire, shootin' off fireworks, laughter ringing out in the night air. The temperatures have been perfect the past few days. I love knowing that my kin/friends in Arizona are struggling with temperatures over 100 degrees while we are sitting pretty at a mild 72 in the daytime.

I was actually chilly tonight while sitting by the fire. Had to scoot mah chair up close as to not frizzle 'neath the stars.

bwahahahahahaha

Oh, is that evil of me? I do apologize. Where on earth are my manners?

I am anxious to get back out on the farm, in tennis shoes this time (was wearing flip flops today), so that I can give my son a ride on that quad! I can't wait to see how he might squeal! Ha ha ha! It's going to be so much fun!

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Really. It is.

I have noticed that on days that I wear my ballet slipper type shoes to work, I am sorta just....meh. I mean, it's not that I don't/can't kick ass it's just that the gumption isn't so much behind the kick.

Not like it is when you're wearing a kick ass pair of heels!

I have found that some of my very favorites are of the vintage/pinpup types such as peep toes, sling backs, ankle straps, etc.

Today was my day.

Today I kicked some ass in a hot pair of black and white slingback peeptoe high heels. I am telling you, it was a phenomenal day. Even though it were a day I could have easily pulled out my hair and ended up in a ball of tears somewhere because of the stress and the bullshit I went through. The fact is that I did not. The reason is because of those heels.

I ruled the world in those heels.

Put on a pair one day.

Just walk. Even a little ways.

If they are high, squeeze your ass cheeks together as you walk. Turn your toes slightly outward as you put your foot down in front of you.

Feel the power.

Own the world. If I am wrong, leave me a comment and tell me to eat dog shit.

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Thanks to my lady, T!

You rock sweetheart!

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He does that to me. Makes me a queen in his universe. He creates a scenario where the whole world revolves around me and I am the shiznit.

And then.

BLAMMO!

It's gone.

It's not my fault people, shaddup.

Seriously.

No, it's not his fault either, back off folks.

He built me a desktop computer so that I could sit next to him at the office desk with my own desktop pc. He spent weeks getting an older computer ready for my use and then surprised me with it the other day after work.

Only......

The monitor just blew up. My back was to it, I didn't touch anything, I swear.

My back was turned as I talked to J about something-or-another and the monitor just died. Dead. Gone. As in no longer in existence.

So, I went from itsybitsy (but fabulous-don't get me wrong) laptop to having my own desktop (not as new and advanced as the laptop) back to laptop in a matter of 12 hours.

Leave it to Meela.

Jade can destroy anthing.

I suppose my mother has been right all of these years. I am completely toxic and dangerous to all that I come into contact with.

Even computer monitors.

Leave it to me to fuck it up.

pee.ess.ess.

If anyone out there in Abingdon/Monmouth/Galesburg Illinois-land has a computer monitor that they want to sell to me (preferrably one that works) I would be interested! Thx!

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It's finger lickin' good! I promise!

New band review, check it out!

Jaded Reviews

Totally.Awesome.

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Maybe it was in the desert too, lost between the folds of brown and the billows of dust. Somewhere so distant that I lost sight of it throughout the years and just couldn't see it through my jaded eyes any longer. Maybe.

I can tell you though, I have never seen life the way I see it now. Illinois has shown me what it is to live. What it is to have life springing up from nothing all around me. Spring. It has a meaning now, a true definition that has grabbed me and taken hold. I am completely enveloped in this season we call Spring and the life that is surrounding me. I literally walk around daily in a state of complete and utter awe. God's hand is truly awesome.

Oh those colors! The vibrancy, the beauty is breath taking! Shades of green I have never seen before that nearly look neon in certain light. The flowers have colors that are so deep and so rich, I almost feel as though those colors can only be created in little plastic buckets with pellets for the purpose of dying Easter Eggs! The earthly palette here is inspiring. My camera has become a permanent part of my wardrobe these days. I never leave the house without it. I see the world as a photograph. One giant canvas at my disposal. Different lighting, different angles, times of day, seasons, subjects, foregrounds, oh my gosh I get so caught up I hardly remember there is life outside of this perfect little bubble that I live in!

My life here is amazing. I have found a happiness; a peace that I have never before experienced. Small town life suits me just right. I love the small town people. I love the small town atmosphere. I love the slow easy way of life in the midwest. I feel like I am home.

I do have a whole lot of city in me that needs to be weeded out, but slowly it is slipping away. I say "supper" (and have been chastised by city folk for it too! lol), I love to fall asleep to the sounds of the tree frogs outside of my window and I wake with the sun to the sounds of the birds singing every morning. It doesn't get much better than this. This is my own paradise right here. I have nested and I don't plan on going any where, ever.

J has always been my muse. It's so much more intense now that I get to share my life with him in this capacity. Up close and personal has opened up my creativity in a way I never imagined it would. It seems that I can't go five minutes in the day without a creative desire or ambition coming to mind. I share with him and he makes it happen. He gives me the skills, the technical capacity to create at my whim. He never inhibits me. He never hinders my desires and he is always pushing me to be the best that I can be, no matter what that is; no matter the capacity. We are all thriving with each other. It's amazing. This life.

I am growing within my new life as much as life is growing within this new season around me. Capturing it all on film is just a part of the miracle called living. Actually breathing it all in is another part.

I just can't seem to get enough.

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And Jade has spent every waking free moment outside with camera in hand shooting every aspect of spring that I possibly can! OMG I am in heaven! Here are some of the best of the best in the latest 400+ photos taken this past weekend. Enjoy!

Through Jaded Eyes I See

AzJade's flickr photo stream

p.s......
My dad just bought himself a new camera! I can't wait to see the beauty his eye will capture! Go dad! :-)

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The best of the best from the past few weeks.

Posted.

Through Jaded Eyes I See.

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Obviously I am at an impasse with this blog.

The reason I started the blog and then kept it going to for so many years doesn't exist any longer. With the removal of the reason, the desire soon followed. The enthusiasm became lackluster and the posts became mundane and average. Lord knows, Jade doesn't do anything mundane or average, therefore I sorta stopped posting all together.

As if y'all hadn't noticed, right?

I am working on an idea, finding a different voice for this blog that has more to do with my life and activities as of now than what they were even six months ago. A voice that reflects me now, as the old voice reflected the old me for so many years.

One thing moving out into the country has done for me, it's beginning to simplify me. Life is simpler here all the way around. I am really absorbing all of the simple pleasures around me and rather than outwardly boasting my findings, I am holding them quietly close to my soul and expressing them via photography. A non verbal account of my days.

Hang in there. Don't abandoned completely.

Jaded Sunburns is going to go through a major overhaul in order to reflect life as I know it now and will remain online. It just might take some time. You know, things in the country do move at a slower pace than most everywhere else. ;-)

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I can speak from experience, that the success of any goal gains it's momentum, at least 50% of it, from the support of friends and family. Shoot, sometimes even strangers can fill in the gaps. I have never properly nor adequately thanked those who offered diligent and unwavering support during my quitting smoking. I feel like a heel for that, really, because they have no idea the monumental role they have played in my success.

The biggest of them were Jeromy and my children of course. But then there was ocB. The one who, at all hours of the night or day, was there, hinging on every wavering moment and ready with quick fire support tactics at every turn. A lot of my success thus far is because of her and J. The rest, because I wanted it bad enough for myself, that I allowed their support to hold me up in the weak moments.

You have to want it for yourself before anybody can be of any good to you. However, you also have to be humble enough to realize that smoking is an addiction, and just like any other addiction, it is going to cause moments of weakness. You have to recognize this and embrace it so that you will be able to lean on those around you who are willing to be that kind of support for you when you need it the most.

Now it's time that I get to attempt to become the supporter rather than the supported and I am so excited for two amazing ladies who are beginning their road to becoming smoke free! Oh, and, not to mention the money you are going to save!

My bitch Sodapoplv and my darling ZenBitch are both hitting the high road to health! I am so stoked I can't stand it! I am so proud of them, for taking this on and I just want them both to know that any time, day or night, I am here for support! Ahh, you make my heart sing! Just wait, you will never have felt better in your life, than you will feel when you get that crap out of your system!

Everyone, head over to their blogs and give them your support! Every last word of positive encouragement helps!

p.s.
I would post a link to my love, ocB, if her blog was still up! *harrumft*
At least I can still send her kisses via YoVille on FB! =)

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